I’ve been trying really hard to put stuff in the back of my mind but today is honestly the worst I’ve felt in a long time. I got called in to work today and was really tired the whole time. Had a few people treat me like shit, which shouldn’t have affected me more than it should’ve because been there done that but I’m just tired of that bullshit. I hate when people just treat you like trash just for the hell of it, or if they’re having their own shitty day so they have to spread their own negativity. And then I got a call from my co-worker who was mad that I didn’t finish a few things this morning… I said I’m sorry and then there was this awkward pause… I don’t know, that was just the icing of the cake of a hectic morning and feeling shitty and lonely in general.
I hate how much pressure I feel now that I have graduated college. I know I shouldn’t care about what other people think, and yet on the other hand I also need to push myself harder and get out of my craptacular comfort zone.
I just feel really, really shitty and lonely right now.